One Lovely Blog Award

I was given this award by Caroline Croley at The Croley Gang.

There are some rules that come with recieving this award : One Lovely Blog Award.




1. Claim your award

2. Post it on your blog along with the name of the person who gave it to you. Linking it to that persons blog. That's the part I have trouble with not sure how to do it, so I'm just going to list My Favorite Blogs.

3. Pass this award to 15 newly discovered blogs that you find.

4. Now don't forget to contact the recipients.


My 15 Are:
1. Caring for Carliegh
2. Looking for Blue Sky
3. Thhttp:/Trough My Mothers Eyes
4.Dancing Barefoot on Weathered Ground
5. Kayleigh's Story
6.Beauty From Pain
7. A Road Less Traveled
8. My Life As Mamma and Wife
9.The Lansinks
10. The Story of Baby Faith Hope
11. A Walk With the Dorions
12. The Beauty of Sufficient Grace
13.The Goodwin Family
14. Baby Seth's Story
15. The Mommy Diary

Busy, Busy, Busy

Our family has been pretty busy since last time I blogged. Lets see...Friday, after hubby got off work, we went to a friends house and hung out. We rented movies and pigged out on food. We
Saturday we got up kind of late and decided to go to the car show held in our town. It was a lot of fun. We wound up having over 200 cars. Eli loved it. He wanted to climb on the bikes.( He also through fits because he couldn't) After the car show my mom took Eli for us and Charlie, Amelia and I went to the drive in. It was nice to get out with the hubby. (Wish we had a babysitter for Amelia also.)
Sunday was our usually visiting the family day. It was also supposed to be a birthday party for the July birthdays. (Long story I will probably blog about later.) After we visited the inlaws and cousins we went to Bible study. It was great also.
Yesterday was Eli ear surgery. It went well. We arrived at the hospital around 7:30 to check in. Then we went back to a room and they put him in a little gown and took his temp (stuff like that). The anaesthesiologist came in to talk to us. Then a lady came back to walk us to the OR. At the OR door we had to hand him over and poor little guy cried. About 15 mins later they came out and got us. We walked to the recovery room and Eli was crying. After I picked him up, he screamed bloody murder until for a while. (He was mad) They gave us instructions and set up a follow appointment and we were able to go home.
As you can see we havent been home much the last few days. It has been eventful, but fun. I am not one who likes to be cooped up long.

Read With Us

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This book reading is for In Faithfulness, He Afflicted Me by Lynnette Kraft.

If you have experienced labor, what was yours like?
With Eli I was induced. I was given Pitocin and was in labor 15 hours before the decided to take me in to surgery. It wasnt all that bad. I was given Stadol in the begining and then I had to get and Epi for the surgery. With Amelia, I had a repeat c section, so I had no labor.

Do you know of anyone whose lives have been impacted by CDH (or has your own)?
I dont know anyone personally. I am not sure what Dori's( Met her through Cafemom) son had, but it was some kind of heart defect.

Kyle's words. "God won't bring anything into our lives that he doesn't already have planned." And then when talking about the coffee cup, "God will only take his hand off when he is letting something into our lives. He is protecting us."
How do these words spoken by Kyle make you feel?
I completely agree with him. I know the God is doing exactly what he needs to do FOR us.

During difficult times, where do you find your comfort?
I find my comfort in praying, listening to Christian music, and talking with my husband.

If God had asked my permission, would I have said yes too, like Lynnette?What would you say?
I would say yes, As hard as that would be. I may not know what the purpose was at that time, but I would know it was for the better.

Walking With You

Walking With You was created to help support those who have lost a child. Together we share our stories, helpful information, scriptures, encouraging words, prayer requests, and more. If you haven't joined us yet, and would like to, you are more than welcome. This week, we are sharing the impact our loss(es) had on our marriage.

When we found out we were pregnant with out little angel, my hubby and I were young a newly married. I was 18 and he was 24. We had only been married for 4 months. Total shock ran over us when we gut that plus sign on the test.
We only got 3 days of happiness and then our world came crashing down. I knew something was wrong that Sunday, when I woke up and I had unbearable cramps. Hubby was at work and I called him and told him something was wrong. I told him I was going to wait it out a lil bit and see if I started bleeding.
A few hours later the bleeding started and my mom took me to the hospital. On the way, we stopped at my hubby's work. I wanted him so badly to come with us and he was going to. Then my mom told him that we would call him if needed and to just stay.
At the hospital I was in so much pain (mentally and physically). I just wanted him to be there and to hold me. I was allowed out of the bed and no one would go call him. Even though it wasn't his fault that he wasn't there I blamed him for it. He wasn't there for me when I needed him most. I held that against him for nearly 2 years. I never told him how I had felt about it until nearly two years later. It mad it hard on us because I was secretly mad at him, until we talked through it.
After we miscarried I wanted a baby so bad. I tried so hard and month after month the test were negative. I turned our love making into a chore or a job. I didn't enjoy it any more. The only thing I wanted out of it was a baby. That really wound up putting a strain on out relationship to.
When we finally did get pregnant again (9 months later), sex just wasn't fun any more. I had changed it for us and it just wasn't the same. Since it wasn't fun, I never wanted it any more. We would get in fights over it because I didn't even want to be touched. It even led him to go astray(after nearly 3 years) and look for the wanted feeling on the internet and with ex girl friends who still pined over him.
We finally sat down and talked about all of it (this has been in the last 6 months). Our marriage was in a down hill spiral and spinning out of control fast. Luckily one thing we have always been good at is communication. After talking and working things out, everything is finally on the mind. We are finally happy again.
For those who are new on this journey, I want to tell you to communicate with your spouses. It is a key factor. Also, dont do what I did and try so hard for a baby that you take the enjoyment out. That is a hard mistake to fix.
All in all though, I think it has brought us a lot closer together and closer to God. It has also made our marriage stronger (even if it almost tore us apart first)

Whats been going on?

Not a lot really. Lets see....Friday night Charlie, the kids and I decided to go to the drive in to see a movie. Boy was that a disaster.
We get there. Unload the kids and raise the back so that we can sit in there and still see the movie. All Eli wanted to do was crawl into the front seat and honk the horn and turn knobs. We finally got him occupied with the movie and ten minutes in, it went to another language and was flipped upside down. We waited and waited for it to get fixed, when finally a guy came around and said it may take all night and that we could get a refund. That was fun also. We loaded the kids back up and had to wait in a long line of cars to get to the ticket booth.
Saturday was my birthday. I am so luckily to have a few good friends and a great hubby. One of my friends drove an hour after she got off work. (at 8pm) to bring me a cake and hang out. We had a blast. Another life long friend came over and they took me out for a drink, while Charlie watched the kids. I can't believe I am already 22!
Sunday was pretty uneventful. We went to the in laws (are usual routine) and hung out for the day. The kids played with their cousins and Papa. While the adults sat around and caught up.
Monday was just like any other Monday. Charlie went to work and the kids and I stayed home. When he got off work we went to church. It was very interesting sermon. They guy the wrote "23 Minutes in Hell" was there and spoke. I really enjoyed it.
Yesterday we did absolutely nothing. Just another boring weekday.

Well I think I have got everyone caught up. Tomorrow Eli goes in for preop and they will tell us what time his surgery is. Tonight Charlie and I are gonna go out with a few friends and have some us time. I don't really know what is going on the rest of the week. I think we have a bbq to go to on Sunday to celebrate my lil sisters birthday and then Sunday cake and ice cream to celebrate mine and my father in-laws.

Read With us

This book reading is for In Faithfulness, He Afflicted Me by Lynnette Kraft.


Have you ever been at a loss for words when trying to comfort another? If you've endured a loss, in what ways have people shown you they cared? How have you shown others you care?

I am always at a loss for words when I am talking to someone in pain. I just dont know what to say. I want to help them, but I am also afraid of saying something wrong or offending them. I usually just tell them I am sorry and that I will pray for them.

When I lost my first baby, people tried to help me. Most of the time it only made me feel worse. People would say things like "It was for the better." or "Something was apparently wrong with it." I always though, "How can it be for the better." or " I would still have loved he/she, even if something was wrong." Its a tough road to walk. Sometimes I think that just saying you are there for them ( and following through) is all that needs to be said.

What fears do you have that you feel you should give to God?

I am always fearful that I will lose another baby. I know that if that is to happen that God wanted that baby with him and has a purpose for it.

Walking With You- The Sea of Grief

Walking With You was created to help support those who have lost a child. Together we share our stories, helpful information, scriptures, encouraging words, prayer requests, and more. Thank you to those of you who have joined us for the past few weeks...for courageously sharing your stories. If you haven't joined us yet, and would like to, you are more than welcome. This week, we are sharing our first steps into the sea of grief.

After I found out I lost my baby all I could do was cry. For the first week I just laid in bed and cried. I wouldn't eat and hardly came out. The second week I decided to go back to school. Every time something would come up about a baby, I would start crying in the class. I hated going to the mall, because I would cry when a pregnant woman would walk by or when I would see a little baby. It took a little while to be able to endure pregnancy and babies. It has been 3 years and 2 babies later and I still have days when I will remember that day and break down and cry. I dont think it is something that will ever heal completely.