Do you have a funny experience to share? What are some of the silly or stupid things you did?
When Eli was a few days old, I was changing him in the hospital. I had him propped on a pillow so that I could reach him better. (I had had a c section) I had just taken his diaper off and was fixing to put the other one under him when he sneezed. That sneeze made him poop and pee all over me. I was laughing so hard that I peed myself. (I hadnt regained control over my bladder yet) My hubby just thouht funniest thing ever and started laughing. In return, guess what I did...laughed and peed some more.
Has there been a time in your life that you felt the world was falling apart?
The day I found out I was miscarrying was the worst day of my life. I dont know if I really felt it was crumbling, but it definitely wasnt how I wanted it to be. I didnt lean on God to get through it. (I wasnt established on that path yet). I wasnt mad at him either though. I just knew she/he was going to heaven and would be alright.
Has God ever worked a miracle in your life or in the life of someone you know?Has God ever worked a miracle in your life or in the life of someone you know?
God has worked many miracles in my life. I may not have seen them at the time but he has. I don't have one big one.
How has difficult times affected your marriage?
When Charlie and I miscarried I kind of blamed him for it. I was so upset that he wasnt there for me at the hospital.( It wasnt his fault. My mom told me we could call if needed) I never wanted to tell him that so, i just kept it to myself until recently. After letting it out, things got so much better. It also damaged are intimate life. I tried so hard to have another one after losing our baby, it put a damper on our love life.
What fears have you struggled with? What fears have you struggled with?
After miscarrying, I fear that I will again every time I get pregnant. I am scared up until I have them. I am still scared that something will happen even after they are born.
Do you feel that God has a plan for your life?
I do feel he has a plan for me and my family. He has a plan for eveyone. I am just not sure what that plan is yet.
What has been the hardest moment of your life so far? I have never had to hand my child over after delivering. I guess the hardest thing for my was going home to wait for my baby to pass. The pain from that physically was worse than labor or anything I had endured. The emotional pain was even worse.